Experimenting & The Fear of Failure
Hellooooo! So, although I am slowing down on putting out songs while I am organizing this Day4Women conference, I am still making music as I can. This month, as part of the Soundcloud Heroes community collaboration theme of “Sounds of Autumn”, I did make a contribution. Again, these community collaborations are done for the purpose of getting Soundclouders to connect and create together. That said, every contribution made for each month’s theme must include the sounds of at least one other person on Soundcloud. This time, I used the sounds of two of my fellow Soundcloud Heroes, Shifty Teeth and One Hello World. In addition, I added my own sounds (guitar and vocals) and organized/produced the track. Now, that word “produced” brings me to the topic of today….experimenting and the fear of failure.
I am not an expert at producing and making tracks. Now, I have made many tracks before…but, that still does not make me an expert. What it does make me is an “experimenter”. I experiment with a little bit of this and a little bit of that and…”hey, that sounds cool”…etc. I have NO idea what I am doing at all. I just try something and do what I can. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn’t. It is very scary, actually. To try something new, test out new ideas, and then put them out there for people to hear. I can see why people may stray away from doing that. It puts you in such a vulnerable place.
For example, this latest song, the one I did for this month’s community collaboration, was very much an experiment for me. I had to use other people’s sounds and try to fit them in with mine and it did not come out very smoothly. But, I did it, I put it out there because I wanted to go against that feeling — the fear of failure. I want to not let the fear of failure get in the way of my creative endeavors. I think musicians/songwriters/artists should be allowed to fail every now and then. Why? Because failure can bring learning, insight, and can push someone to exceed on the next one. We should be allowed to try out something new, something outside of our normal. Where would we be without experimenting? We’d be stuck hearing the same damn thing every time, never progressing.
Same goes in life. We should be allowed to try something new and become ok with the idea that we might fail. Because when we do this, we open the door to other possibilities, to deeper understanding of our world and our own selves. So I say…to hell with it. Do not let the fear of failure stop your need/desire to experiment and try something new. All that said….here is my latest “experiment”.